Sunday, January 08, 2006

going back 525,600 minutes

i haven't even started the FGD outline that i'm supposed to pass tomorrow, yet i found myself opening my college files. guess what i found? a reaction paper i wrote on the MMDA's wet-flag policy, dated january 6, 2005 - just a little over a year ago.

a year ago, i was a college senior taking up research in psych 2, counseling, organizational behavior, foundations of moral value, politics & governance, & theo of the catholic social vision. i was most likely jotting down notes for my final paper in philo, brainstorming for my counseling sessions, & analyzing the data we got for our thesis. all these things put together was hell at that time, but i would gladly do all of these again than deal with the problems i am facing now.

with each day that passes, i find more & more serious issues that i have to face on my own. i know that a year from now, i would probably write this same thing. a year from now, i would probably want to deal with my current problems than face the issues that i would be having at that time. however, this thought does not offer me much solace.

during the past two days, two of my high school friends sent e-mails regarding the "quarter-life crisis". being twenty-one, this must be the phase that i am in. i am currently unhappy & lost. i long for the day when i can feel light again.

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

january 6, 2005 - second day back from xmas break... um... thesis = 'transcribe' hehe...

(guess who ;) )

grace said...

a one million dollar-question...

BADZ! :)

by this time, tapos ko ng i-transcribe yung assigned sa kin. nagtrabaho ako buong Christmas break, e. hehe...

(though hindi ko pa rin natapos yung para sa ibang subject... ;) )

Anonymous said...

hahaha! galing! :)

sayang wala akong $1M pang-prize, hehehe... :D

Rolls said...

Is that what it's called? Quarter life crisis? Hay nako! eh pano ako, 23 na?
Nag gabay xmas party ka pala! :) Me xmas party din ako with my team eh, kaya hindi ako nakasama. Musta ka na?

grace said...

badz naman, huwag mo naman insultuhin ang talino ko. hehe...:) btw, is your blog up already?

kuya rolls! eto, medyo may problema ngayon, pero parang magiging okay na. yup, dumaan ako sa gabay Christmas party, pero sandali lang. & yes, quarter life crisis ang tawag. try kong padala sayo yung mga email kasi interesting din naman. :)

papie said...

hay. lagi ko iniisip din yan. if you think about it, two years ago (jan 2004) THIRD YEAR lang tayo. ibang iba pa mundo ko non. im sure ikaw din.

re: the quarter life crisis, as they say, "this is just a phase". CHEER UP GRACIE! =)

whenver i feel down about being twenty-something, i listen to highschool pop music and watch highschool movies. =) love ya

grace said...

iba talaga ang mundo mo nun. wala pa si greggy, e. ;)

don't worry, i feel much better already. something just came up in work last week, but i'm coping nicely already, i think. :)

Anonymous said...

ngayon ko lang na-realize, ung 525,600 minutes ay mula dun sa kantang Seasons of Love... so dapat di ka na sad, kasi season of love. wehehehe =D

grace said...

chi! may point ka dun. hehe, inconsistent nga na ginamit ko yun for a sad entry. :)

Anonymous said...

yup, http://thebadz.com/blog ... pero wala pang post, sobrang busy kasi lately, last week two nights ako naguwi ng trabaho at inabot ako ng 1am sa kanila (very minimal pa yung procrastination nun, hehe) :(

grace said...

badz, i wonder how you define "minimal procrastination". haha! :)

Anonymous said...

1 hour max, tapos work na na tuloy tuloy with at most one 20-30 minute break in between... ;)

grace said...

pwede na. :)