(through text)
me: bkt k inubo? cguro nilamig k last kgbi...
bene: bkt k inubo? cguro nilamig k last kgbi... -last kagbi?Ü nt rili. Nahawa ako ng ubo s client, tapos last kgbi (hehe!) sbi k no ice ung drnks k kso nlagyan.
deplorable. utterly deplorable.
i just emailed my fourth year friends about how whatever writing skills i may have had have degenerated already. now, i see that i should work on my grammar first, before even dreaming of getting the hang of writing again. argh.
(pardon the slight melodramatic tone. i just feel like exaggerating. harhar.)
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Saturday, February 25, 2006
cool pala
kaya makikiuso na rin ako. hehe! :)
please indulge my self-centeredness, even for just a minute, okay? many thanks, in advance!
Sunday, February 19, 2006
and i'll remember...
our journey as MT's officially ended with our graduation last thursday, but i'll always remember our...
...percussion adventures at Timezone
...buhay-baboy days at the 4th floor (& in Ateneo Salcedo)
...cramming sessions prior to revalidas
...palpable tension during the revalidas
...lunch time escapades at CAS, CCD, AFG or harrison
...conferences in the 2nd floor CR
...discussions in the training room
...pseudo-discussions in the HR reception area
...graduation slash kiddie party at the board room lobby
...charades & singing competitions
and (my personal favorite)...
...our brainstorming sessions prior to the public speaking part of our final revalida.
thank you so much, friends.
bow.
from an old friend
2.17.06
"in my dream last nyt, we chancd upon each odr @ a tryk trminal. it ws awkwrd as evr, bt jst b4 u left i had d courge 2 sy hi...n u greetd me back..i felt so happy."
"well, i gues if i did run in2 u n real lyf, id feel awkward at 1st, but den, i wudnt let that get in d way, kc sa totoo lng, nami-miss n kta. i hope we cn st b frnds."
"meet by chance? very unlikely ata..i know things wl nvr b as they were, pro ok lg b sau makipagbati? as in no hard feelings? sakn ok lng, in fact gs2 ko.."
it's been some time. it's been a little over two years since that fateful day of february 2, when i saw and felt my world crumble right before my eyes.
some people would probably think that that was a long time ago. i think and feel otherwise, because when i am alone, tears still fall from my recollections of that day. i am still confused about why those things had to happen, and why those things had to happen to me. i am still angry because people i thought i had a bond with judged me without even waiting to hear my side. but most of all, i am still hurt because i was treated the way i was treated, after everything we've shared.
would anyone believe me when i say that i didn't want things to turn out the way they did? two years ago, i knew that most people had such an unflattering opinion of me, that they would think i was being selfish, contrary and uncooperative on purpose.
if only they knew how hard it was for me to pull myself together during those times. if only they saw the effort i exerted to somehow try to make things clearer, my side at least. if only they felt the sting that their words inflicted on me, when they made up their minds on the basis of the very few things that they know.
the damage has been done. to an extent, things are beyond repair. but are they really? i've been carrying this load on my shoulders for two years. i'm beat.
to the last text message that i typed above, i replied that "i could try". that's all i can promise. i could only hope that this time, i'll be given a chance.
"in my dream last nyt, we chancd upon each odr @ a tryk trminal. it ws awkwrd as evr, bt jst b4 u left i had d courge 2 sy hi...n u greetd me back..i felt so happy."
"well, i gues if i did run in2 u n real lyf, id feel awkward at 1st, but den, i wudnt let that get in d way, kc sa totoo lng, nami-miss n kta. i hope we cn st b frnds."
"meet by chance? very unlikely ata..i know things wl nvr b as they were, pro ok lg b sau makipagbati? as in no hard feelings? sakn ok lng, in fact gs2 ko.."
it's been some time. it's been a little over two years since that fateful day of february 2, when i saw and felt my world crumble right before my eyes.
some people would probably think that that was a long time ago. i think and feel otherwise, because when i am alone, tears still fall from my recollections of that day. i am still confused about why those things had to happen, and why those things had to happen to me. i am still angry because people i thought i had a bond with judged me without even waiting to hear my side. but most of all, i am still hurt because i was treated the way i was treated, after everything we've shared.
would anyone believe me when i say that i didn't want things to turn out the way they did? two years ago, i knew that most people had such an unflattering opinion of me, that they would think i was being selfish, contrary and uncooperative on purpose.
if only they knew how hard it was for me to pull myself together during those times. if only they saw the effort i exerted to somehow try to make things clearer, my side at least. if only they felt the sting that their words inflicted on me, when they made up their minds on the basis of the very few things that they know.
the damage has been done. to an extent, things are beyond repair. but are they really? i've been carrying this load on my shoulders for two years. i'm beat.
to the last text message that i typed above, i replied that "i could try". that's all i can promise. i could only hope that this time, i'll be given a chance.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
a looong survey :)
stole this from pitt's blog. i don't usually answer surveys, but i thought that this is quite nice. it prodded me to recall things that i might not have thought about, otherwise. :)
10 Firsts
first best friend: anna, my nursery seatmate.
first screen name: grace_roselle. (actually, this is my only screen name.)
first pet name: baby :)
first piercing: hindi ko alam kung alin ang nauna, kung yung sa left o right ear ko. hehe!
first crush: secret! (clue: that was in grade four...)
first CD: it must have been a compilation of songs i bought in ATC when i was in third year high school. may M2M, britney, & christina.
first school: our lady of mercy kindergarten (lagro subdivision, novaliches, QC)
first house location: lagro subdivision, novaliches, QC. it was actually my paternal grandparents' house. we moved here to cavite after our own house was done.
first kiss: what a rhetorical question! bene, of course. :)
first car: i don't have a car, but we use my dad's 1979 red toyota corolla. ancient na, no? but it has great sentimental value. he won that car in PNB's december 1979 raffle. :) naka-survive na rin yun ng banggaan. nakabangga si daddy ng mercedes sa BF. hindi na makatakbo yung chedeng, pero si daddy, nakauwi pa. hehe... :)
9 Lasts
last time you smoked: actually, the first and last time was in grade school. can't remember who smoked then, but i picked up the cigar butt and tried it. i was horrified when smoke came out of my mouth.
last food you ate: the blueberry cheesecake that bene made for me for valentine's. i finished it already, with the help of my family.
last car ride: does a cab ride count? kotse din naman yun, di ba? if yes, then my last car ride was on thursday night, when connie, jonah & i went to glorietta.
last movie you watched: sa moviehouse, the family stone, which bene and i watched on Christmas eve. sa dvd player, 50 first dates, Christmas gift ni bene. (grabe, my movie life seems to revolve around him.)
last phone call: parents ko on thursday night, asking where i was.
last CD you listened to: the best of the corrs
last bubble bath you took: never had a bubble bath...
last song you listened to: dream of me by kirsten dunst
last words you said: "oo, okay na to. magkano ba to?" - sagot ko nung tinanong ako ng helper namin kung okay na sa kin yung binili niyang isang pack ng those days pads with wings. hehe.
8 Have-You-Evers
dated a best friend: in the romantic sense? nope. most of my best friends are female. but in a friendly, casual sense, yes, because i have gone out with all of my best friends. hehe.
been arrested: nope.
been on TV: yup, when my classmate competed in the digital LG quiz in third year. i was part of the audience.
eaten sushi: yup, and i didn't like it one bit.
cheated on your BF/GF: nope. good girl ako. ask him, if you want. :)
been on a blind date: nope. spending time trying to forge a romantic atmosphere with someone i do not know does not appeal to me. actually, it scares me.
been out of the country: nope.
been in love: of course. :)
7 Things You Are Wearing
1. pajama top
2. pajamas
3. panty
4. bra
5. right contacts
6. left contacts
7....
6 Things You've Done Today
1. ate tahong for breakfast
2. ate blueberry cheesecake for dessert
3. ate chocolates for my second dessert
4. had my phone's housing changed by my dad
5. texted ma'am vanessa that i'll be in the office after lunch
6. texted bene
(and obviously, i'm blogging right now)
5 Favorite Things
1. my bolster pillow
2. my old, big and pink blankie which has been mended a zillion times already
3. my "small miracles" book
4. my ancient 6210, which serves me just fine
5. our PC, which is my window to the distant and not-so-distant world
4 People You Trust The Most
1. tin carillo
2. tin de guzman
3. gel
4. bene
(ang hirap ng four lang! marami pang iba, e.)
3 Things You Want To Do Before You Die
1. get married
2. raise a family
3. support a cause that i'm passionate about
2 Choices
vanilla or chocolate: chocolate, though i'm allergic to it (along with chicken, cheese, eggs, nuts, crab and shrimp.)
hugs or kisses: hugs
1 Person You Want To See Right Now
bene. i haven't seen him since valentine's, e.
10 Firsts
first best friend: anna, my nursery seatmate.
first screen name: grace_roselle. (actually, this is my only screen name.)
first pet name: baby :)
first piercing: hindi ko alam kung alin ang nauna, kung yung sa left o right ear ko. hehe!
first crush: secret! (clue: that was in grade four...)
first CD: it must have been a compilation of songs i bought in ATC when i was in third year high school. may M2M, britney, & christina.
first school: our lady of mercy kindergarten (lagro subdivision, novaliches, QC)
first house location: lagro subdivision, novaliches, QC. it was actually my paternal grandparents' house. we moved here to cavite after our own house was done.
first kiss: what a rhetorical question! bene, of course. :)
first car: i don't have a car, but we use my dad's 1979 red toyota corolla. ancient na, no? but it has great sentimental value. he won that car in PNB's december 1979 raffle. :) naka-survive na rin yun ng banggaan. nakabangga si daddy ng mercedes sa BF. hindi na makatakbo yung chedeng, pero si daddy, nakauwi pa. hehe... :)
9 Lasts
last time you smoked: actually, the first and last time was in grade school. can't remember who smoked then, but i picked up the cigar butt and tried it. i was horrified when smoke came out of my mouth.
last food you ate: the blueberry cheesecake that bene made for me for valentine's. i finished it already, with the help of my family.
last car ride: does a cab ride count? kotse din naman yun, di ba? if yes, then my last car ride was on thursday night, when connie, jonah & i went to glorietta.
last movie you watched: sa moviehouse, the family stone, which bene and i watched on Christmas eve. sa dvd player, 50 first dates, Christmas gift ni bene. (grabe, my movie life seems to revolve around him.)
last phone call: parents ko on thursday night, asking where i was.
last CD you listened to: the best of the corrs
last bubble bath you took: never had a bubble bath...
last song you listened to: dream of me by kirsten dunst
last words you said: "oo, okay na to. magkano ba to?" - sagot ko nung tinanong ako ng helper namin kung okay na sa kin yung binili niyang isang pack ng those days pads with wings. hehe.
8 Have-You-Evers
dated a best friend: in the romantic sense? nope. most of my best friends are female. but in a friendly, casual sense, yes, because i have gone out with all of my best friends. hehe.
been arrested: nope.
been on TV: yup, when my classmate competed in the digital LG quiz in third year. i was part of the audience.
eaten sushi: yup, and i didn't like it one bit.
cheated on your BF/GF: nope. good girl ako. ask him, if you want. :)
been on a blind date: nope. spending time trying to forge a romantic atmosphere with someone i do not know does not appeal to me. actually, it scares me.
been out of the country: nope.
been in love: of course. :)
7 Things You Are Wearing
1. pajama top
2. pajamas
3. panty
4. bra
5. right contacts
6. left contacts
7....
6 Things You've Done Today
1. ate tahong for breakfast
2. ate blueberry cheesecake for dessert
3. ate chocolates for my second dessert
4. had my phone's housing changed by my dad
5. texted ma'am vanessa that i'll be in the office after lunch
6. texted bene
(and obviously, i'm blogging right now)
5 Favorite Things
1. my bolster pillow
2. my old, big and pink blankie which has been mended a zillion times already
3. my "small miracles" book
4. my ancient 6210, which serves me just fine
5. our PC, which is my window to the distant and not-so-distant world
4 People You Trust The Most
1. tin carillo
2. tin de guzman
3. gel
4. bene
(ang hirap ng four lang! marami pang iba, e.)
3 Things You Want To Do Before You Die
1. get married
2. raise a family
3. support a cause that i'm passionate about
2 Choices
vanilla or chocolate: chocolate, though i'm allergic to it (along with chicken, cheese, eggs, nuts, crab and shrimp.)
hugs or kisses: hugs
1 Person You Want To See Right Now
bene. i haven't seen him since valentine's, e.
Sunday, February 12, 2006
makeover
this morning, i emailed gole (a fourth year high school classmate who gives hair treatments) to ask what treatment would be appropriate for my hair. i told him that since it's straight already, i don't think that rebond is for me. this was his reply:
hello grace,
yep i think rebond is not for you. to tell you honestly, i think you need a brand new look. sweety arent you tired of plain straight blunt cut? dont take this negatively, im just want to bring out the best in each of my clients. :)
nyweys as what i was saying, i think you need to go for the trendy cut. ung layered, with textured ends, plus side swept bangs. (most korean/asian hairdos) i dont cut, but i can give salon recommendations like -- salon de manila, salon de orient, salon de ken, piandre, 6750, bench fix, mendez, etc. then you can have a bit of coloring (in shades of brown) to add spice. (i do color)
and for maintenance/treatments, you can actually do it on your own. any hair spa/hot oil product will do. i highly recommend kerastase masque oleo-relax available at david's salon.
:)
i had to employ all of my brain cells to keep my laughter from spilling out of my mouth. my mom was within earshot, & i didn't want her to think that i've gone gaga over an email or a post.
yeah, i agree with gole. i've had long and straight hair for the longest time. but actually, i've already gone through some of his suggestions. i had bangs until i was six. i had a layered hairdo for some time in college, & i got tired of it. as for color, i don't think that's acceptable in a bank, unless it's really light (which would totally defeat the purpose).
i know, a new look would do me good. the question is, what new look? how would i know what would look good on me? i certainly don't want to try to find out through trial & error. i dread even just the thought of going through a day with a monstrosity of a hairstyle. haha... :)
since i can't get a makeover yet, my blog is somehow doing it for me. obviously it has a new look, thanks to blogspot templates. i feel so lucky to have found this template, which goes with my current chatterbox so perfectly, i don't even have to change the font colors. plus, it works well in both firefox & explorer. yay! :)
i just need a bit of help...how can i move the text in the main content area to the right, so that they wouldn't touch the fabric swatches? is there a simple way to do that?!
hello grace,
yep i think rebond is not for you. to tell you honestly, i think you need a brand new look. sweety arent you tired of plain straight blunt cut? dont take this negatively, im just want to bring out the best in each of my clients. :)
nyweys as what i was saying, i think you need to go for the trendy cut. ung layered, with textured ends, plus side swept bangs. (most korean/asian hairdos) i dont cut, but i can give salon recommendations like -- salon de manila, salon de orient, salon de ken, piandre, 6750, bench fix, mendez, etc. then you can have a bit of coloring (in shades of brown) to add spice. (i do color)
and for maintenance/treatments, you can actually do it on your own. any hair spa/hot oil product will do. i highly recommend kerastase masque oleo-relax available at david's salon.
:)
i had to employ all of my brain cells to keep my laughter from spilling out of my mouth. my mom was within earshot, & i didn't want her to think that i've gone gaga over an email or a post.
yeah, i agree with gole. i've had long and straight hair for the longest time. but actually, i've already gone through some of his suggestions. i had bangs until i was six. i had a layered hairdo for some time in college, & i got tired of it. as for color, i don't think that's acceptable in a bank, unless it's really light (which would totally defeat the purpose).
i know, a new look would do me good. the question is, what new look? how would i know what would look good on me? i certainly don't want to try to find out through trial & error. i dread even just the thought of going through a day with a monstrosity of a hairstyle. haha... :)
* * * * * * * * * *
since i can't get a makeover yet, my blog is somehow doing it for me. obviously it has a new look, thanks to blogspot templates. i feel so lucky to have found this template, which goes with my current chatterbox so perfectly, i don't even have to change the font colors. plus, it works well in both firefox & explorer. yay! :)
i just need a bit of help...how can i move the text in the main content area to the right, so that they wouldn't touch the fabric swatches? is there a simple way to do that?!
Saturday, February 11, 2006
now...
i'm starting to feel all over the place. this weekend, i actually intend to work on some of the tasks that i failed to finish this past week. i have yet to put a sense of order into the files i have, which partly explains the long time it takes for me to accomplish some things.
still, i feel fortunate. so far, i like the people i work with. & i don't mind having to work this weekend, because i like what i'm doing. recruitment is tedious, but it can be fun and fulfilling. :)
still, i feel fortunate. so far, i like the people i work with. & i don't mind having to work this weekend, because i like what i'm doing. recruitment is tedious, but it can be fun and fulfilling. :)
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
alive
my three days have been okay. quite eventful actually, but manageable so far. i don't think that i've been giving a stellar performance, but at least i don't feel so all over the place.
by the way, this was me a little over a week ago, after the three rounds (presentation, public speaking, & leaderless discussion) of our revalida. seems like a long time ago...
by the way, this was me a little over a week ago, after the three rounds (presentation, public speaking, & leaderless discussion) of our revalida. seems like a long time ago...
Sunday, February 05, 2006
new experiences beckon
the management trainee program that i am in officially ended last friday. tomorrow, my co-MT's & i will be starting in our new departments as junior officers. here's where we will be:
retail marketing - aisha
consumer sales - robbie & jonah
retail loans - jamie & crystal
treasury - justin
remedial management - cecille, kris & elcie
auto finance - connie, benj & sarah
enterprise financial services - roxy
accounting - rina
human resources - me! :)
yes, i got into the department i wanted. i'm quite happy about that, yet i couldn't help but feel a tremendous weight on my shoulders. i feel that if i mess up in any way, people could always point their fingers at me & whisper to each other, "she doesn't have any reason not to do well. she got what she asked for, after all."
i may be paranoid, yes, but i have reason to be. after all, i did wage a fierce battle just not to be assigned to a business unit. i spoke what's on my mind, so passionately to the extent that i could not contain my tears anymore at times. *sigh*
tomorrow, i will start being an HR officer. i'll be in recruitment for 6 months, then i'll be transferred to organizational development. i'm scared, very scared actually, but quite excited too. i have a lot to learn, new people to get along with, new projects & tasks to do, new boss, basically new everything. i know that i've been working for 8 months already, but i feel that the "real" work starts tomorrow. i'm not an MT anymore. as some officers say, we MT's are not "special" anymore.
there are many expectations, but above all, i hope that i can live up to the expectations that i have for myself. i hope that if i pass something, it's something that actually passed my standards, & not an output that i'm already turning in because i mismanaged my time & don't have time anymore to make things better. i want to be a better version of who i am.
am i making sense? maybe not.
all i know is that i am currently on the threshold of something new, that asks more from me than i've already given so far. i hope & pray that i'll be able to deliver.
retail marketing - aisha
consumer sales - robbie & jonah
retail loans - jamie & crystal
treasury - justin
remedial management - cecille, kris & elcie
auto finance - connie, benj & sarah
enterprise financial services - roxy
accounting - rina
human resources - me! :)
yes, i got into the department i wanted. i'm quite happy about that, yet i couldn't help but feel a tremendous weight on my shoulders. i feel that if i mess up in any way, people could always point their fingers at me & whisper to each other, "she doesn't have any reason not to do well. she got what she asked for, after all."
i may be paranoid, yes, but i have reason to be. after all, i did wage a fierce battle just not to be assigned to a business unit. i spoke what's on my mind, so passionately to the extent that i could not contain my tears anymore at times. *sigh*
tomorrow, i will start being an HR officer. i'll be in recruitment for 6 months, then i'll be transferred to organizational development. i'm scared, very scared actually, but quite excited too. i have a lot to learn, new people to get along with, new projects & tasks to do, new boss, basically new everything. i know that i've been working for 8 months already, but i feel that the "real" work starts tomorrow. i'm not an MT anymore. as some officers say, we MT's are not "special" anymore.
there are many expectations, but above all, i hope that i can live up to the expectations that i have for myself. i hope that if i pass something, it's something that actually passed my standards, & not an output that i'm already turning in because i mismanaged my time & don't have time anymore to make things better. i want to be a better version of who i am.
am i making sense? maybe not.
all i know is that i am currently on the threshold of something new, that asks more from me than i've already given so far. i hope & pray that i'll be able to deliver.
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