Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
- Neil Gaiman
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point taken, mr. neil gaiman. but while my love life is far from being peachy at the moment, i am not about to denounce love. sure, the events of the past few months have finally started to sink in, and i'm starting to feel the pain of being ripped apart. the present offers no solace, and the future seems bleak. yet for me, hating love would be synonymous to forgetting that the 52 months i devoted to my former relationship gave me more happiness than hurt.
i feel anything but strong at the moment, but i don't want to get mad. i also don't want to feel bitter. nothing in what i'm in right now is easy, but i'm still grateful that i went through this. after all, not everyone can say that they've been loved by the one that they love.
8 comments:
that quote.. i have that in one of my planners (yes i have a lot of them hehe). wala lang..
hmmm.. funny, i never really thought of it as depressed-i-hate-love, when i read it, loved it and posted it in my blog. only when your commentary after that did the thought presented itself to me- na galit na i hate love pala iyon. i don't know why ang dating sakin ng writing ni gaiman is i-hate-love,it-hurts, pero somewhere i know deep in that person's heart it says, the hell the hurt- i will love, still, again, because only love gives you that whirlwind pain that comes with that small little smile but super duper brightened up your day, which made it a brighter week na... hmmm... sana hindi lang ako bangag dahil anong oras na hehe!
gracie, you're such a fragrant spirit. :)
eew. wala akong crush sayo ha.
chi,
ilan ba ang planners mo? :)
sarah,
iba kasi ang pinanggagalingan ko ngayon kaya siguro iba rin ang dating sa kin ng quote. :)
papie,
hi! spirit ko lang ba ang fragrant? hehe! ;)
that was shared to me by a teacher nung 2nd year high school. galing ng description... funny yung conclusion :-P wala lang. naaliw lang ako sa pagsusulat ni Neil Gaiman
hi gee! anong book ba to? interesado na kong basahin. :)
i got that quote from a friend of mine, heart broken kasi siya hehehe. pero astig, ang galing nung description, love hurts in a visually imaginable way hehehe.
well, heartbroken din ako kaya nasa blog ko na rin ang quote na to. hehe... :)
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